Citygirl/ Farmhand

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Sunday, February 21, 2010

Finding myself. At 33

After an alcohol induced fight last night in which I was convinced my husband was flirting with his brother's trophy wife, at his brother's birthday party no less, I drank a vodka and club soda which pushed me over the top and sank into a deep dark place. A fuzzy world clouded by insecurity (and alcohol) and the horrifying fear of being forced to reinvent myself and find my way in the world all over again. Didn't I already go through this when I was 25? It sucked then. It sucks a lot more now. And waking up to this depressing-ass article didn't help: http://www.nytimes.com/2010/02/21/business/economy/21unemployed.html?hp

Maybe I also need to turn to God?

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